You may recall that last month I started “The Living Magick Tarot Challenge”, where I use Living Magick’s awesome “Tarot Learning Cards” to finally learn the tarot and chronicle my progress monthly. November had a very strong start and I felt confident that by the end of December I would have the Major Arcana down cold, and would be well on my way to knowing the entire suit of Cups from the Minor Arcana. Yep, that was the plan.
Well, we might as well call this update what it is, bull crap. I have loads of excuses and no results. My illness from November is still a problem in December. My husband has spent the better part of December sick on our sofa. My work situation got pretty crazy in December. And of course, there were the holidays. Not only did I fail to maintain even the slightest bit of discipline with using Living Magick’s “Tarot Learning Cards”, I just fell off the wagon entirely and didn’t even touch the cards the entire month of December.
So why on Earth am I writing this update when I have nothing to share? Essentially to keep me honest. I could sit here and lie and odds are good no one would ever realize I hadn’t learned anything, but what’s the point in that? I dropped the ball. I suck. And now I’m moving on.
The holidays are over. My health, although still shaky, is certainly manageable for the moment. The husband is out of sick days to use for work. And my overall work load has become something I have much greater control over. Enough about December and all its failings, and on to January! We’ll talk about this again soon, I promise.
I have found that simply doing readings for myself have been the best teacher for the cards that I could have imagined. It’s more fun than just trying to memorize meanings, and I’ve recently noticed that I’ve begun to get a good intuitive sense of the cards now.
I still look up the cards to make sure I’m not forgetting any of the symbolism, but for most of the cards, I get a good immediate feel for what’s going on just by seeing the image.
Well, the way to effectively change is to check in with yourself regularly, forgive yourself for perceived failures, reset your goals, and get on with it. It seems you are right on track to success.
Good for you. You do not suck. Perhaps circumstances do, but not you yourself.
You go girl!